Popping in after waaaaaay too long. I renewed my core sub, but not sure how much I am going to be around to use it. Things have gotten worse work wise. So much so, that I have gone to the Regional HR in hopes to get these issues resolved. I have a more than apathetic Assistant Store Manager over my department. He gets two days off a week, and I have only gotten 1 since I have come back from vacation. I am still working 55-60hrs a week, some days without a lunch while working 11-12hrs. His response to me working so much is "you shouldn't do that". Ha. He is so not funny. I have a little boy who misses his mom, and is acting out in his own ways because I am not home enough. I maybe get to see him 1-2hrs a day, if I am lucky. There are some days I don't get to see him at all. Suffice to say, despite the good money, I really would rather be home with my son than having that extra money in my bank account.
My little man is getting so big though! He is about 36-37in tall, 34ish lbs, and wears a size 9 shoe. This kid is sturdy and freaking adorable. Light of my life. When is shown a picture of me, he points at it and says "mama". When my husband had to pick me up from work while my car was in the shop, mentioning that they were coming to pick me up got the little man focused enough to get ready to get into the car. He is talking so much now, and says new words every single day, and is starting to put two to three words together already, and not even 2! (Mommy bragging) A smart little dude. My one day off is spent spoiling him, so we usually go out to breakfast then do a short hike together. I treasure what little time I have with him right now, because he is just growing and learning so fast. Changing every day.
As you can imagine, writing has been non-existent. Any free time I have is spent with my family, or trying to sleep as much as I can. I don't sleep well at night because I keep dreaming about work and waking myself up by talking in my sleep or even yelling. Not fun. Nothing but work is usually bouncing around in my head right now, but since there is so much going on there, and so much that needs to be done in terms of making it a workable place once more, it isn't that much of a surprise. I just wish I had more time for myself.
Example: I am scheduled for 58hrs this week. I left 2.5hrs early yesterday to drive down to see my parents and grandparents (my husband also bought a newish truck, as his old car is basically worth parts now). But, I went to spend a few hours with my family that I had not seen in quite a while. I worked an extra hour today, and will probably do at least the same tomorrow. So, the time I took off is pretty much nil at this point. Really sad. But, I did get the majority of the afternoon (that I was not napping for), off with my family. Told work I was leaving at *this* time, left 1/2 hour early, and did not look back.
I haven't had a day off with my husband since we got back from vacation. There are some days I merely see him for like an hour when I get off work before we go to bed. I know for some people, this kind of schedule works for them, but it is killing me. I would kill to be an ASM right now, with a "set" schedule. I know when I go in, I know when I get off, and I know my days off. It would be amazingly wonderful. And I would get paid more!
Anyways, enough ranting. I may find some time to do something other than write journals once a month, but until that happens, I will keep poking around here and there until things change. Maybe I might post some writing randomly. We shall see.